Well I am overdue for an update and since I posted on my Facebook status that I have finally completed all things that have been required of me, I am trying very hard to curb my enthusiasm :-)
In the past 6 weeks I have truly had an emotional and mentally trying time but also a spiritual experience. I say that because I realize that it's the magnamity of the role and responsibility I'm pursuing that truly has me in awe that God would entrust me with someone else's child. . . .
I'm abt to be someone's Mommy & though it doesn't mean being pregnant it's still a time of preparation- like Queen Esther- placed in her position for such a time as this
http://www.focusonthefamily.com/parenting/adoptive_families/your_childs_adoption_life_story/gods_message_about_your_childs_life_story.aspx
As I prepare I find myself not only reading books but thinking abt the many aspects of what parenting a teenager will be like. Yes God placing me in a HS, my experiences in schools, with my nieces & mentees will definitely help- but she will also be my spiritual and physical responsibility. I am focused on being a parent, not just what I could 'get' out of this. The reality of the magnitude of God giving me the assignment of this young lady to raise according to His Word. . .
train up a child in the way that she should go so that when she is old she will not depart from it Proverbs 22:6
hits me like Him choosing Mary to be mother of Jesus- not a physical conception but spiritual. Makes me think how else could she look so much like me (?) LOL
She comes w so many things already established abt her character & identity etc & though we're not starting from infancy or early childhood- we are starting from our own new beginning. We are establishing our relationship w each other and we're preparing her for the future & hope God has for her. I'm just grateful for the oppty to be a chosen & willing vessel in her life
I'm also grateful that each of you are in my life to help however you can cause it does take a village to raise a child- no matter how old they are when they come to you.
Like a shirt I've seen online says
I'm in love with a child I haven't met yet
I'm in the process of adoption
I am subject to cry at any moment
Please bear with me until my approval comes
Curbing my enthusiasm is HARD but so worth it!
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